My Sanctuary

when I think about my dad, I no longer feel the pain and anger I used to harbor. there is still sadness yes, but I don't think that's ever going to go away. I'm sad that I didn't get to know you better, sad that I didn't let you get to know me better. I regret that we didn't have more time together, but then I remember that you didn't want this either. I can finally start to see the light at the end of this long dark tunnel. it's faint, and still a long way away, but it's there. I know I have a long way to go, and at times I might lose sight of that light while dealing with obstacles, but it feels good to have the knowledge that I'm going to make it, I just have to stick at it. these... episodes will probably continue to plague me for the next year or so, but the fact that I recognize and acknowledge them, that I've made progress in dealing with them, is improvement enough. as I look back on the past year, I do acknowledge that I