you know, believe it or not, there once was a time when I was actually genuinely interested and passionate about mandarin. sure, it was only a brief window of time, but it existed. it was at the end of 2004 to the middle of 2005. I'd just got back from a family trip to Tasmania. my mum's friend had come with us on that trip and she'd brought along DVDs of old chinese movies, like 'Dream of the Red Chamber', 'The Kingdom and the Beauty', 'The Three smiles' 'The Love Eterne' etc. it's funny but I really liked these shows, and many more, and so for some time I really wanted to improve my own command of mandarin. I still like these shows, and occasionally do still watch them. I guess the reason I miss Korea so much, is that it was an escape from reality, it represented freedom, and happiness a time that was without burden and worry. Jia Min is always telling me that Pisces people like to daydream and escape from reality. well she's right....
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just finished baking brownies for tomorrow's(or rather,today's) Christmas celebration. thinking through the events of my most recent holiday in South Korea, and comparing it with my trip to Japan earlier this year, I realize that my feelings fluctuate as the holiday progresses. I shall call this the "Holiday Feelings Curve", based on a 7 day tour of a foreign country. Day 1: YIPPEE YAY YAY YAY I AM SO EXCITED TO BE GOING TO ANOTHER COUNTRY!!! Day 2: This is so fun I love this place so many different sights and sounds!!!!! Day 3: Why do I always have to wake up so early???? I hate this place I regret coming here, I want to go back to Singapore now!!!!! Day 4: Hmm...Okay fine, I guess I could get used to this place, it isn't so bad after all... Day 5: Lalala~ I kind of like this place.. Day 6: OMG 1 DAY LEFT??? NONONONONONONONO I LOVE THIS PLACE I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK!!!!!!! Day 7: Back in Singapore already???? WTF NOOOOOOO (starts whining and ranting about Sin...
I don't feel like doing much nowadays... the computer is a bad influence. I really need to stop snacking after 12am. and maybe start sleeping earlier...well maybe... it's too fun waking up in the late afternoon though, that way I feel better about staying at home on the computer when I should be outside enjoying the fresh air because most of the day's already past, the sun'll be going down soon...it's just...a lazy time of the day. well, my kuroshitsuji wall scrolls are up and they look beautiful, my room is almost done, except for a cupboard which my mum assures me she'll get...when she's in the mood. I guess I should think about going to sleep soon.
musings of a half sick sarcastic bitch in an ironically philosophical mood at 1am
it seems that every time I'm sick I seek solace in the comfort of the written word. these past two days when I was sick, I simply curled up in bed with my books and just read. it's been so long since I'd done that and I miss it. nowadays I'm usually too occupied with the internet to really sit down and read for a prolonged period of time. but alas, the clock is ticking and dark days are fast approaching... oh that I could skip ahead to next wednesday when I'll have nothing else to fear! on another note, my nose is running like a broken sink, I wonder if that's a legitimate reason to skip training? But I kid, why would I even want to? the wondrous joy of the game, the exhilarating rush of adrenaline, the extraordinary sense of camaraderie and the unbelievable sense of satisfaction I get is enough to spur me on and inspire and instill within me the heart and soul of a sportsman. If I was not convinced before I am now. I wonder at how long it's taken me to disc...
I love rainy days. rainy weather = lazy weather which means I don't feel guilty about vegetating in front of the computer all day long because hey, it's not like I can go outside and commune with nature or something. I am definitely in the holiday mood, and I think it's unrealistic for teachers to expect us to actually do homework now. I mean, it's bad enough forcing us to come to school and sit through boring lectures, they should be grateful we're even turning up, let alone expecting us to do work????? Pffft.
I saw christmas decorations while out shopping today. remembering it now, reminds me that Christmas is (sort of) near, which also reminds me that the year is coming to an end. listening to Kat-tun's 'White Christmas', while reading through kamichan 's old blog posts, and reminiscing about Hey!Say!Jump's four year career has put me in a nostalgic mood. I know it's a a bit early to be writing a "yet another year has passed" post, and yet, just like that, another year has indeed passed. this time last year, the celebrations for the end of O'levels had barely even started now? I'm thinking about how I'm going to have to really buck up for next year's A'levels. I can't believe I actually survived one year in jc and came out, well, not totally unscathed, but at least in one piece. I still remember the euphoria, the excitement, the relief, and later, the anxiety, the fear that comes with change, that comes with the beginning of a new...
what better way to celebrate the end of something as serious as PW than by treating myself to a shopping spree of anime and manga goods at this year's AFA? I sincerely regret all the wasted years when I didn't go early. Because it is definitely worth it. I also regret not bringing more money with me today. some would say that I'm wasting my money on frivolous items of no real use, and to that I would like to say : Stuff You. because 4 wall scrolls and more later, I am a happy girl. And happiness, as they say, is priceless. p.s am sorely tempted to go back tomorrow to blow more money on more stuff but I shall resist